For starter, i would say feliz cumpleanos which means happy birthday in Spanish.
Well, i'm quite happy about this 19th birthday.
They said happy birthday even though there's no cake, just some blessings.
I can't say nothing and don't have to do nothing but it's hopeless and even a little of disappointment added in it.
It's a long day, I'm tryna to breathe in every second and talking to myself, it's just a simpler day.
The higher position you climb, the deeper hurt will occur.
Before that day, my friends stated out the birthday of whole class on a calender and showed it in front of the class.
My classmate didn't know that until my lovely teacher, Miss Lileen said Happy Birthday to me.
She said it and we stared for a while then she walked out. Plus, i replied her Thank you in soft voice, i hope she knew it, really hope.
In that moment, i was shocked and tried to find a hole, jumping into that and hiding myself.
Therefore, my classmate asked me today is your birthday. Well, you know the answer.
Actually, i didn't feel any sense of happy.
I hear something before that, i didn't tell anyone and just leave it behind.
I don't know when was it, laugh just a laugh, my brain can't produce the feeling anymore.
That is a funny thing.
My Indian classmate asked me "Today really is your birthday?"
I don't know how to answer him, am I look like a 15-year-old young girl ??
Another Indian boy asked "where is the birthday cake", i said "you prepare that for me, right?"
He said "Nonono, the person prepared what, this is STK's tradition." Well, I almost lie down at that moment.
I'm the second old people in that class. Gonna suicide!!
BULLSHIT!! I already 19 years old but somebody still delights his/her 18 years old.
It's over. Starting from next year, the number wasn't 1 anymore. 25 years old, 6 more years.
It's not too far and too close.I will appreciate this last year of my first quarter of life!
There's a HUMAN or you can call her SLUT. Occcch! I'm very very kind one, you can also call her SON of BITCH :)). It's up to you.
What the hell on your mind? Something like shit or iron?
Or your brain stopped functioning edy? Don't be a copycat and smell the gas behind me!
Can you do your OWN styles? I don't care that the words happy birthday come out from your cheap mouth!
Is that anything wrong when I chat with them? Why you follow me? Why you're tryna to interrupt us?
Can you just back off?
A-CA-XUSE ME! STAY AWAY FROM ME!
I'm not saying something bad about her. Please imagine.
If your "friend" always leave you alone when she has friend. If you chat with boy, she is be your side and show she is your "friend" out of sudden. What's your feels?
And you can't understand the talk topic that they discussed, you let yourself at a corner of the classroom. She ignore you and others feel that you're alient.
They don't even wish to say a word to you. The scenario shows you leave your friend alone.
You're the killer, the murderer! What the hell was that.
Fine fine fine.
Last but not least,
My wish is I hope happiness can close to me.
Gracias a todos por sus bendiciones.

